You're Going to Miss It is a taste of an ongoing project intended to finalize as a book. It is a collection of how I document the early motherhood experience and its effects on my mental, emotional and overall state of being. It touches upon nostalgia, wonder, depression, exhaustion, absurdity and those little viewpoints that caregivers experience that are so very hard to put into words. The images range from daily life to Vanitas incorporating my children's discards.
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3641,1600,3641/0-0-0/781fec3d-e2b2-48d3-92fb-1cab5aa64549/1/1/DSC_9587.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bb3a1574430fd3c6696ed1151270a987927f20b98b2c6bbaa1609fc90d95025)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1440,2880,1600,2880/0-0-0/d6009bbc-4f77-4796-ad88-b6b77c024b56/1/1/IMG_20180828_172932969-01.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=7bce996c8c898dd50924933018057e034fd5c0140c0417513585247a09d9164c)
new body
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3641,1600,3641/0-0-0/03504988-203d-4846-9c27-83f0724358a3/1/1/L1000066.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bb3a1574430fd3c6696ed1151270a987927f20b98b2c6bbaa1609fc90d95025)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,768,1024,1600,1024/0-0-0/fb74a2fa-403b-4893-82c6-eac8a49326b8/1/1/PXL_20210426_223610987_LS_exported_1123.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=92196c27ac131b181d8c31cd3dcdcb0becb402a6156652c6e7fa902a466bb76c)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3641,1600,3641/0-0-0/a0d27eee-d885-4db2-b04f-4db21bab9063/1/1/L1000317.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bb3a1574430fd3c6696ed1151270a987927f20b98b2c6bbaa1609fc90d95025)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/07ccb741-6d65-47a4-a613-5edb8eb48bf7/1/1/L1000414.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/0b1bbec9-8bf9-4ad4-b1d5-415a4ef62452/1/1/IMG_20210510_145804_763.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/58aa4c4a-fd49-4560-b9d0-0438c88ebb03/1/1/L1000071.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/76311c2f-e3d5-4572-9953-8068164f5e74/1/1/DSC_9468.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/6256ca12-30d8-457c-a298-0a51274e337f/1/1/L1010869-2.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2428,3645,1600,3645/0-0-0/8aa80b0d-b927-4c8b-b7ef-cfe5a7b706ef/1/1/drooling_lips.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=1a93ba6438dc7af0d874d9ee9a1737a65aa2726ba52699fbf50ba3275c7301d4)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3001,2948,3001,1200/0-0-0/8b963cd0-ba57-4cb1-bc1f-8a1c283ef316/1/1/L1000551.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=5ee202c14b320ca36c08425ee2e47aa5b5546f3d177b5068636845a28214a4e3)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3641,1600,3641/0-0-0/0ff75546-3964-426e-b679-c22812670eac/1/1/DSC_3298.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bb3a1574430fd3c6696ed1151270a987927f20b98b2c6bbaa1609fc90d95025)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/aa5cf392-d8b6-4d5a-ac74-54b46ef1fef8/1/1/L1000170.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2943,3006,1600,3006/0-0-0/4ec8d232-650d-4b87-ac4a-d5ea6e645893/1/1/1621015066389.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=65349bbdcb993e05d7ed9a1e6b07c82f70c4950e7016db0d54b141f8f0ddd9da)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3641,1600,3641/0-0-0/05a1b19d-2fbf-4527-86be-f0bbf8efc010/1/1/L1000913.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bb3a1574430fd3c6696ed1151270a987927f20b98b2c6bbaa1609fc90d95025)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2448,2448,1600,2448/0-0-0/2542c627-5ea9-498c-b71e-41f1e1978e3f/1/1/IMG_20190125_132555339.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=d26993d15c701e9de4fbdfe6982facc54e5363b2f856982489ec02785757c4f3)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2048,2001,2048,1200/0-0-0/988d1879-26ef-404f-8f96-7fbc1fcc8392/1/1/Larsen_Emily_-2-4.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=a8f7940b4db6d86881fb42d29adb46d5e313f292bfdf123938ed38b0eb5a91db)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2620,3377,1600,3377/0-0-0/b7016b7c-81f3-487d-b83b-8fe8ce37b66a/1/1/L1010829-2.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=11a46cfdd73986310cd0f6126edda0b78d43b61119df277b6a446fef6c78a58d)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/b43ef708-3fb8-474b-bab4-a3939df538f9/1/1/L1010788-2.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2479,3569,1600,3569/0-0-0/be9f7d13-4509-4b9a-b7f0-3b99b3194440/1/1/L1000527.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=f16c72e8ab8a2ecf724f246241c4ea419b04f82ab7f0d9f3fc118c6666ebaaa6)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/68ff6d1c-69f9-4e0d-8ff4-6c040113fc71/1/1/L1010409.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2448,2448,1600,2448/0-0-0/961a16b1-315d-4752-839c-3106a3968262/1/1/IMG_20190107_150350108.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=d26993d15c701e9de4fbdfe6982facc54e5363b2f856982489ec02785757c4f3)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/92b53ffd-c17a-429a-a8a3-c4c023185a6d/1/1/L1010390.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3641,2430,3641,1200/0-0-0/62eeed41-403e-48b5-a969-a095cd23b5ec/1/1/L1010299.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=068030d58975a87d3c685308b4b22713951f92e389bb0811fc36c4f403171791)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3641,1600,3641/0-0-0/1c6c5c55-37f1-4a1b-9877-730bd108ced6/1/1/DSC_1130.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bb3a1574430fd3c6696ed1151270a987927f20b98b2c6bbaa1609fc90d95025)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2649,2483,2649,1200/0-0-0/bba5d1b8-6578-4423-8747-a9d2567815d7/1/1/L1010120.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=db15e182921b72477bd16a009e08403f95e8e61716c29306293c4ae1ec5e9a25)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1200,1200,1600,1200/0-0-0/af2c4fca-8070-4685-b34d-a7b83f0c8872/1/1/IMG_2018-08-30_17_17_41_bw.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=30b469a3e92a5be53a0931b19e312a948ad831c36110cbbde56eb0be4809ec58)
postpartum 01
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3623,2442,3623,1200/0-0-0/fd13fbb9-4398-42f9-b1bf-813525527c9a/1/1/L1000145.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=d4379d7e7cdf28ef25a30bd3150f19f86d0ba71173aa566bad21775c97a9cb1c)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2097,2097,1600,2097/0-0-0/993645ce-6f26-42fc-bd27-6c471ecfeaa9/1/1/IMG_20190717_193610_844.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=cb1e77bc460b1277704b39e94c77d160b50af20f8362a2b4f748f14ebfc4b121)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/ce72ab18-cb3d-4bae-abd2-4b80fb2aa3f3/1/1/IMG_20180825_092251515.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2501,3537,1600,3537/0-0-0/c4e9cdcb-7626-4b36-8b1d-b275ed6cc3b9/1/1/toddler_collab_19_mon.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=a0e43ec8fdf5bd2024d676f606c574b031aa26b078f5827523dd948e24b08f9f)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2160,1440,2160,1200/0-0-0/f3ac362a-9c76-4a60-8abb-481a82b358ac/1/1/IMG_20180901_101554905.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=02a84ee229da9aed834af6ba1880dcc60c235a3aad3be8b5ea7404c31a58f679)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2576,3435,1600,3435/0-0-0/39165b4c-e652-4876-a144-0287e677fcbd/1/1/IMG_20180724_151328.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bfbe78d7c865a905e6ac897e4d690ec4a3e43d6c4c9a7a3a25c340a0e80bf47)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2943,3006,1600,3006/0-0-0/a28c4a82-9e3a-469f-9435-7e964acc1ff8/1/1/1623168168323.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=65349bbdcb993e05d7ed9a1e6b07c82f70c4950e7016db0d54b141f8f0ddd9da)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2943,3006,1600,3006/0-0-0/c982c372-be0c-40fd-ac34-a603c3675d79/1/1/1614192162545.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=65349bbdcb993e05d7ed9a1e6b07c82f70c4950e7016db0d54b141f8f0ddd9da)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3642,2429,3642,1200/0-0-0/9d911a3d-c1f5-433c-9e93-b2f28688f7bc/1/1/L1000398.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=594f199d2d2368cae3ae3191eada69d4dae446bbc7a355ef77890de77dc25bfb)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3000,2250,3000,1200/0-0-0/7fd49b04-1bd2-42f7-bda1-6fe5b04bed38/1/1/IMG_8039.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=7129b5db85248e05f553cd3913174115010fef7471e0e489313449ea25ee2694)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1200,1200,1600,1200/0-0-0/8974cfde-24ae-405b-8476-298ef40db891/1/1/IMG_2018-08-30_17_14_28_bw.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=30b469a3e92a5be53a0931b19e312a948ad831c36110cbbde56eb0be4809ec58)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2430,3640,1600,3640/0-0-0/a18e35ef-c17c-4079-b2d3-45e9adba592e/1/1/editsrowan_1.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=7c08b4c1b833a1577417a0e25d21a7162c410291bafbf9ee6746d9be98558812)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3648,2425,3648,1200/0-0-0/1ea30ddc-5162-4506-803a-0d3644e1776f/1/1/_IMG1653.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=b48c0a6f67f83e87f616ce63172ca1e9219413e8388fc7e17ff22d0758a962bc)
postpartum 08
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2576,3435,1600,3435/0-0-0/ad0d367b-5878-469c-b593-b543be88b0ec/1/1/20211110_145208.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bfbe78d7c865a905e6ac897e4d690ec4a3e43d6c4c9a7a3a25c340a0e80bf47)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/8a9df527-695a-4e19-a935-fe5f3f45f448/1/1/IMG_2018-08-28_17_25_03_bw.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
postpartum 05
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2425,3648,1600,3648/0-0-0/973d915f-f808-4709-a3b1-225fb9b2f2df/1/1/Larsen_Emily_-3.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=3a58aa8c9472f507ade24f238568d8c64a946a8f1c4c43de493b37648aa723e5)
self portrait
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1440,2880,1600,2880/0-0-0/98d92530-c4c5-4c4f-bde3-2b32e31b3b73/1/1/IMG_20180825_091845738.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=7bce996c8c898dd50924933018057e034fd5c0140c0417513585247a09d9164c)
postpartum 06
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/362a60e2-1fbc-438a-8fe7-e3e46d3f1fef/1/1/IMG_20180825_092355261.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
functioning
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,3642,2429,3642,1200/0-0-0/2d044846-2358-47d5-a622-c15c0381fdb6/1/1/L1000429.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=594f199d2d2368cae3ae3191eada69d4dae446bbc7a355ef77890de77dc25bfb)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/9814cba7-d23e-42dc-b464-e065b59b8f3a/1/1/Larsen_Emily_-1.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
self portrait
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2576,3435,1600,3435/0-0-0/3232815e-a1e1-4a36-a0cd-56917869fb0f/1/1/20210912_154344.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bfbe78d7c865a905e6ac897e4d690ec4a3e43d6c4c9a7a3a25c340a0e80bf47)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2974,2974,1600,2974/0-0-0/71244af5-7851-4943-b2fc-f31bd434c08e/1/1/L1000875.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=e4a8b3037a21121cfed19def7f10d5670780a9c4a50622e329b053c8201d2e8d)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2425,3648,1600,3648/0-0-0/191d2c51-d800-4f8b-aa97-08debf743d09/1/1/Acadia_NP_edits_55.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=3a58aa8c9472f507ade24f238568d8c64a946a8f1c4c43de493b37648aa723e5)
self portrait
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1297,978,1297,1200/0-0-0/b5e4a71c-fd0c-4b08-95d1-ac0b3d0aff37/1/1/grid_flesh.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=29e926c8914021186590643c2dae529c2cf586df2cf56f0e1e42d3d29285d74e)
same body/new body
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1980,1980,1600,1980/0-0-0/b9598a4f-a8e7-421a-9578-5240feab9994/1/1/IMG_20190530_120350_113.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=d8ca2a671eab58ab891a690d9599f933d0aadc5f5345daeda54bf451469f927e)
postpartum 09
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,2576,3435,1600,3435/0-0-0/3d97d0bf-9ec9-419f-a5b6-1b0c6d31389c/1/1/IMG_20180828_114021.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=0bfbe78d7c865a905e6ac897e4d690ec4a3e43d6c4c9a7a3a25c340a0e80bf47)
unknown persons
info
×
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/df0e2894-4528-4e18-8ae0-cd969d57e8d7/0/0/0/0,0,1200,1200,1600,1200/0-0-0/76664069-90f2-4b7f-8bce-f64f2b37dd20/1/1/IMG_2018-08-30_17_18_34_bw.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037596349~hmac=30b469a3e92a5be53a0931b19e312a948ad831c36110cbbde56eb0be4809ec58)
postpartum 04
info
×